A while back I went to see Outer Minds play at Turf Club. Not only does the band specialize in the kind of dark, dangerous psychedelia that I thrive on, singer/organist Mary McKane and drummer Brian Costello are friends of mine from Columbia College Chicago.
The band’s Saint Paul gig was the first stop on a three-week tour of the West, undertaken the old-fashioned way, in a questionably reliable van (they’d already encountered their first automotive trouble driving from Chicago to Saint Paul). Chatting with Mary before the show, I mentioned how impressed I was with their commitment. She shrugged and said that between this, her writing and her other band, she was at least keeping herself from having to get a day job. I was instantly flooded with an admiration bordering on the profound.
The usual cliché of the rock star lifestyle is all trashed hotel rooms and feverish bursts of drugged-out inspiration, but I’ve always been more drawn to the grungy aesthetic of the barely-making-it band. That’s why I hold Gillian Welch’s “April the 14th Part 1” as the greatest song ever written about rock and roll. There are plenty of songs about wanting to be a rock icon, ranging from celebratory anthems of aspiration (Prince's "Baby I'm a Star," Dr. Hook's "Cover of the Rolling Stone") to cynical tales of caution (The Byrds' "So You Wanna Be a Rock & Roll Star?", The Smiths' "Paint a Vulgar Picture"). With “April the 14th,” though, Welch treads considerably more grounded ground.
She sets the stage with a snapshot of a young woman's brief encounter with a touring band: "I walked downtown on my telephone / Took a lazy turn through the red-eye zone / It was a five-band bill, a two-dollar show / Saw the van out front from Idaho." It's a placid scene so far, but the slow dirge of Welch's vocal and guitar lend an air of foreboding that only intensifies with the next lines: "And the girl passed out in the backseat trash / There was no way they'd make even half a tank of gas / They looked sick and stoned and strangely dressed / No one showed from the local press."
At this point, the musicians aren't just grim and hopeless figures, they come off almost like alien beings. Welch dispassionately discards all the usual touchstones of rock stardom. Fame is off the table – none of the papers can be bothered to cover the show. Money is even less of a motivator – unless the song takes place within half a tank's drive from the Idaho border, the band will be dipping into its own funds just to get home, let alone to the next tour stop. Even basic human comforts seem to be out of reach – they're visibly sickly and literally sleeping in their own filth.
It looks like a bad scene all around until Welch brings around the redemption with her verse-closing couplet: "But I watched them a while through the bottomland / And I wished I played in a rock and roll band."
That line is, to me, what makes “April the 14th Part 1” the greatest song about rock – and maybe even art in general – ever written. There's a line my old pastor used to be quite fond of throwing at us youth group kids: "True love is not because of; true love is in spite of." I'm tempted to apply that here. You could argue that Welch is looking past all of the external ugliness of the band's situation and seeing the beauty of being a touring band. But even that makes it too easy. I think she's looking at the squalor and poverty and futility of this unnamed Idaho ensemble and falling in love because of all that.
The rest of the song is likewise packed with grim beauty, describing the mundane clean-up process after a show ("Threw the plastic cups into plastic bags / And the cooks cleaned the kitchen with the staggers and the jags") and cryptically referencing three tragedies that took place on the titular April 14th (the sinking of the Titanic, the Dust Bowl's Black Sunday and the Lincoln assassination). It's all bleak and poignant and just as enticing to me as it is to Welch.
It's easy to look at young Mick Jagger strutting and fretting on a massive stage or Billie Holiday crooning in a smoky basement jazz club and think, "That's what I want!" Those scenarios are pretty much the definition of sexy wish fulfillment. But to think the same thing while watching the opening band packing up their mic stands in front of an indifferent Wednesday night crowd at the neighborhood bar? That's a different impulse all together, and I think it has a lot to do with what makes artists make art.
Take this blog post, for instance. Who's going to read this? Maybe a couple dozen people who follow me on Facebook and Twitter. A lot of folks would say (and have said) there's no real reason to spend my time and mental energy writing something that's going to have such a miniscule reach. I suppose they'd be right, but I'm not writing this in hopes of reaching a huge audience. Sure, I'd be thrilled if this or any of my writings went viral and I became the toast of online artistic circles and got invited to write an op-ed column for Slate and saw myself pilloried on anti-arts message boards. But that's not why I do it. I do it because these ideas are in my head and I need to put them down in writing.
Not only do I need to do it, I love to do it. Most of my writing is done late at night, huddled in a chilly basement, racing to get something coherent written down before the accursed necessity of sleep becomes too overbearing to fight. It's not glamorous, it's not fun and there's seldom any kind of financial reward waiting at the end of my word count, but my god, do I look forward to putting on some records, hunching over my laptop and driving myself half-crazy obsessing over conjunctions. I won't go so far as to say the writing is its own reward – I always write in the hopes that somebody is going to read it eventually – but if I was only in it for the glory I'd have given up a long time ago.
That's the beauty of “April the 14th Part 1.” Better than anyone else I've heard, Gillian Welch captures the artistic drive to get out there and make something, to share your creation with whatever miniscule sliver of the world you can coerce into glancing at it. Even if the experience is awful and ugly, it's still your art and it's what you have to do. My hat is off to Mary and Brian and Gillian and all the other creators who can face up to the harsh realities of an artistic existence and say, "That's what I want!" The world needs more of that.
Hey, nice post about a great song/great artist! /best whishes from Janne i Kalmar, SwedenReplyDelete
Thanks for stopping by, Janne!Delete
I love this post. I think this is the first time I've been to your blog and I feel I should have visited a long time ago.ReplyDelete
Dunk! Good to have you here, compadre. Thanks for reading.Delete
Ira, you speak for basement artists everywhere, working in a million different art forms on trillion different art projects. Good stuff, my friend.ReplyDelete
Thanks Kelly! I'm happy to strike a chord.Delete
Right on, Ira. Thanks for this.ReplyDelete
Great stuff. Thanks for sharing.ReplyDelete
I had to listen again to this song after reading your comments. I think you hit it on the head! Thanks.ReplyDelete
I'm reading you today April 14.ReplyDelete
First time reader here. Well, I've been fascinated with this line of April 1th Part 1 "But I watched them a while through the bottomland / And I wished I played in a rock and roll band." for a long time. Started googling it today to find out why it's about this date and found an answer at this link:https://blog.longreads.com/2015/04/14/gillian-welch-on-how-april-14th-came-to-be-ruination-day/. Still, reading your thought on this beautiful song did more for me than actually knowing the origin of the reference. I'm glad you wrote this down in the basement and I'm glad there are people that feel the same way about this song as I do. Much love and keep on writing, MichaelReplyDelete
Just re-read all of the above and I'm still impressed. Going to play both songs now and will pay more attention to the lyrics.ReplyDelete
Thanks so much. It's very gratifying to me that people keep on reading this piece years later. It's one of my personal favorites of my music essays.Delete
It's not the upward path that makes life beautiful and poignant, but the downward path, where we're all equals. We look out for each other, and love is freely given to all. We've got nothing to get, only to give.ReplyDelete
Excellent, insightful piece of writing. Loved this song for years and got here via a search to find if the band was an actual band. Delighted I did. Dublin, Ireland. March 2019ReplyDelete
I found your post during the time of the Coronavirus. I was listening to the song, as I had dozens of times before, but the full significance of the line about wishing to play in a rock and roll band really hit me and caused me to Google discussions of the song. So glad I found your piece. I immediately read it aloud to my wife and we shared a laugh and a tear. Thanks for the momentary mental release from quarantine!ReplyDelete
Wow. Have spent a life in the professional world, making all the "right" moves. I woke up this morning thinking about an "artistic" and "unique "contribution to the world. After watching Grapes of Wrath and wanting to better understand Black Sunday, and Gillian Welch and her commentary on it, I landed at your blog. Landed with a decided "thump" - or was it a knock at a door, falling into Alice's rabbit hole, or the voice of god? Not sure, but it was an answer to a question that has no words, just longing...the artistic longing. Thank you.ReplyDelete
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Wonderful ode to my all time favorite song. Welch has discussed the back story of how April the 14th Part 1 and Ruination Day Part 2 came to exist, and to be separate songs. But I find myself (again and again) listening to April the 14th Part 1 and Everything is Free together. Together they are a profound meditation on how the drive to create is irresistible, and unresistable, even in the face of every hand against it.ReplyDelete
April 14th is also known for Bussa slave rebellion on Barbados in 1816. An army of 400 slaves fought for two days, but were defeated by the colonial militia.ReplyDelete
Every sunny day, across the world around,Delete
the sun rises up, and then falls down.
Eighteen-sixteen, they rose to be free,
on a sunny isle, but it was not to be.